Into-The-Moment

SO DA! Lifes improved for me now, spent a few days away, sorted my noggin out and I'm back on track! Only tgood things from here on out,l one youve hit th bottom, the only way is up, and nothing else could've gone wrongfor me, so here's to making this year and next the best years EVER!

Yesterday, I spent the day with the worlds most amazing person ever, we cuddled, kissed, and had a genuinely good day, I went to bed feeling happy in myself, this morning I woke up and found out my ex is back with an abusive psycho, so I've sunk into a pit of darkness. I don't know what to do with my face, weather to go down and have it out with him, after playing me and leading me on for months, and try to save him, or let him go and NOT get myself mixed up and hurt again.. This also leaves me confused as to yesterday, was any of the crush I started to feel real? or was it all a mask my mind had created to cover my pain? I'm a strong believ

So I'm meant to be cosplaying Lightning Farron (FF13 version) In may, So far, I've had a SHIT TONNE of bad reviews on the idea, and VERY few good ones, So I'm terrified, She's such a brilliant character, and I really CAN'T afford to do one more bad costume, THEN there's the idea of her 13-2 armor, which is STUNNING but I'd be too scared to wear. Ugh, What the fuck is wrong with me DA? Why can't I just be fucking HAPPY with a costume, and have fun, like the rest of my friends? I sometimes wish I'd never joined the cosplay fandom. A very pissed off Bluestar. Sorry for the language. Blue x